SEX OBJECT

What's getting hot and wet and very horny got to do with being something inanimate? Well, to begin with, if the thought of being dehumanised and/or objectified did not turn me on then I would not do it! Yes, ok, well it could be argued that I would do it if my Owner told me I HAD to, but our relationship doesn't really work that way. If I am not sexually excited by something then it is of no interest to my Owner - that's not his bag at all!

Then there is the control - it turns me on to be controlled and it turns me on to be able to control myself, or to be more specific, control my human qualities and actions, and that includes my sexual responses. It is pretty much impossible to stop the physical signs of arousal, you cannot will your cunt to be dry, your body will always betray you! However, suppressing vocal and free movement signs of enjoyment and orgasm is a challenge that I enjoy greatly.

Something my Owner said not so long ago was that when I am in a non-human role he is likely to be far more sadistic than if we were simply in a plain BDSM session. The stripping away of my human-ness allows him, in his mind, to be this way. The more sadistic he is, the more he treats me like an object, the more turned on I am. The more turned on I am, the more sadistic he becomes, the more sadistic he becomes the more he is turned on - a win/win situation!!

Should an inanimate object experience sexual arousal? Why the hell not! As I have pointed out in previous posts, no matter how hard one tries to actually be a doll or a chair or a mannequin or whatever, it won't ever be truly real and one should not think one has failed in a role because they have been unable to control what happens naturally. Additionally, the minority of those who experience no sexual thrill in these types of roles and do them for other reasons should not look at the rest of us with any disdain or disgust - each to their own and let's leave it at that!

DISTURBING IMAGES THAT ARE A TURN ON - PART ONE

I am deeply attracted to this artwork but I am not sure why! Perhaps simply the complete and utter objectification, submission and humiliation of the female in the drawing, the pencil and paper fantasy that can only ever be that - a fantasy.

What is she? A dog, a horse? I feel that she is just a pet, mentally in the same way that I am. She doesn't need to have a genre or a species to just be.

I suspect that this image is meant to show that the subject has had her legs and arms amputated but when I look at it I imagine that her arms and legs are actually trapped in holes in the steps and that she is more there for decoration and sexually abusing than movement.

I have no idea who the artist is and if anyone knows, please let me know.

PLUG IT IN

HUMAN STATUE

Whilst visiting the British Museum in London last summer I was particularly enchanted by a marble statue of a naked Aphrodite crouching at her bath and thought how wonderful it would be for me to recreate her and freeze myself for purposes of decoration.

Well, it was not that easy! Unfortunately I am made from flesh and blood and not cold stone marble! Additionally, I am most certain that whoever modelled for the sculptor of the original was much younger and fitter than I! But I tried very hard to get as near as possible to how the statue looks, breathing deeply in order to lull myself into a silent and inactive dreamstate, ignoring the aches and pains within my muscles.

All in all, it was an incredibly serene experience, and I suppose, in a way, it is bondage without the restraints.

Have to say, I am in awe of those human statue street performers who hold a pose for hours and hours on end - amazing!

The picture below shows the Aphrodite statue on the left and my interpretation of it on the right. Obviously there is a little Photoshop help here with the marblisation of my skin and the setting of me on a plinth - in reality I was atop a low table!


Photo ©2010 by Alternative Mindsets

FETISHISTIC FASHIONS

I stumbled upon a couple of things during an insomniac moment last week. First off, a couple of digital style dresses which may be rather pleasant to wear in a fembot role:

The dress on the left is a rubber creation by Ego Assassin, whilst the dress on the right was designed by Em Stone and I think it was a one-off.

Next up, some wonderful legwear that would be perfect for dolls:

These are by Les Queues De Sardines and are limited editions which are screen printed by hand.

WHAT'S IN A NAME?

Of all the non-human roles I adopt there is only one that carries an actual given name. Obviously roles such as furniture or statue would not need such personalisation, but doll is just 'dollie' and pet is just 'pet'. The only role in which I have been given a name is that of ponygirl.

Not entirely sure why that is. Perhaps a pony is more deserving of a name due to equine pride and elegance. My owner thought hard about what to name his pony and the result is fitting.

I certainly don't crave given names for my other roles, and don't feel that I am missing out in any way. In fact, now that I have given it some thought, I actually do like the non-naming - makes it just that little bit more unpersonal and objectified.

GET ME A BEER!

THE MECHANICS OF MOVEMENT

I mentioned in a previous blog, Designing The Doll - Ideas To Reality, about detailing further about my preference for movement type.

I came with a label attached that read -

"Hello – I am your new doll, to play with as you please.

As I am a doll I cannot talk. I can however move as I am programmed with voice activation software. Key words for this use as detailed on the back of this label.

For any movement outwith this programming, you will need to manually position your doll.

Have fun with your doll. Treat her well and she will last you many years.

Rechargeable batteries are included."

The doll responds only to the following words - walk, stop, sit, lie. Any position or movement outwith these instructions, the owner has to position the doll manually. This includes things such as having the doll's fingers positioned around objects such as a vibrator, then positioning the hand over the right spot!

How are the doll's batteries recharged? By way of an internal electrode attached to a TENS machine!

The doll is not always played with of course, sometimes she is merely displayed and admired, usually on her stand, as below.


Photo ©2010 by Alternative Mindsets

FOR THE LAZY BUGGERS...

who don't want to make much of an effort for their doll play - the blow-up doll hoodie!!! Just pop it on back to front!

WHERE DO YOU GO TO MY LOVELY?

I was asked recently, where does (insert my name here) go when she is transformed into something not human? I actually found that a very difficult question to answer fully allowing understanding to be gained by the questioner.

I first thought, perhaps, it may be a form of subspace but, for me and the way I am, I do not think that would correct. For me to sink into subspace takes sensations, pleasure and/or pain, plus the absolute knowledge that I, as a human being, am being dominated by another. Now, whilst this could be applicable in the case of pony or pet play as there is ‘life’ involved, I do not actually see myself as being dominated whilst in inanimate roles such as doll or furniture. Domination is surely all about minds, and inanimate doesn’t do minds!

So I pondered a bit further on the question and whether or not my theory is valid and correct is irrelevant really as it is simply how I see it and how I would best describe it to a layperson.

I mentally perceive myself as like a Russian doll. The main figure is me, the woman, the wife, the mother, the friend, the person who shouts at the news on the TV, the person who makes fantastic cupcakes, the person who frets about the size of her thighs. Inside this main figure is different versions of me, unscrew the figures until I find which one I would like to be/need to be today. The remaining figures are put aside for the time being and all of my concentration and emotions are focused on the chosen figure. I pretty much forget that there actually IS any other figures, or indeed the human being that is me. Each individual figure is impregnated with the aspects of behaviour, the necessary actions and the particular mindset it takes to be whatever that figure represents.

Simples :)


Photo ©2010 by Alternative Mindsets

H&M CINEMA AD

What an absolutely fabulous advert! Robot-like maids, tiny human dolls in dollhouse, caged female, girl stuck between house floors - what is there NOT to like!

FIRST TIME PONYPLAY

This piece was written early last year and details my first serious ponyplay session:

Pony play is something that has always interested me and we have 'messed about' with it over the years, never really focusing fully on it but rather incorporating it into scenes. However, in the last year, my eager and easy immersion into role during pet play led us to the natural assumption that taking pony play further would be pleasing for us both.

The last few weeks I have spent getting my tack together, including the cutest pair of rubber hoof mitts! Last night we went for it.

As I got myself ready I could feel my humanity slipping away and the equine mindset push forth. Ridiculous I know, but it pained me somewhat that I was unable to buckle my upper body and head harnesses myself and had to come downstairs and ask my owner to assist me – a pony can't speak you see . But then, as it was pointed out later, a pony should probably be tacked up by it's owner, not do it itself!

Suitably attired with my hand hooves clipped onto my harness behind my back, I was aware of my whole posture changing. I held my head upright, my back straight. I am 5'2” but felt so much taller! I listened attentively as my owner revealed the pony name he had chosen for me and gave me instructions of what his signals and commands would be, resisting the urge to nuzzle him and swish my tail!

My owner began with some basic leading, guiding me, ensuring (by way of a crop!) I kept my posture and demeanour, eyes straight ahead, never deviating. He followed this by some lunge work, general walking at first, but then changing me to high stepping. He reeled the rein in a little in order to hold the crop up at a certain height, his expectation being that my thighs reached that height when stepping. It was hard work and my muscles are paying for it today!

I loved it, loved it all – the discipline, the bondage, the dehumanisation, the obedience, the physical challenges. This is certainly something we will continue with – lots of training to do! And I look forward to the warmer weather when we can take this to the great outdoors!

My only complaint? He forgot the Polo mints and I had to make do with some chocolate as a reward – it's a hard life!


Photo ©2010 by Alternative Mindsets

HUMAN RUG

Slightly misleading title as it is actually a model head and not a real person! Designed by Chrissy Conant and named "The Chrissy Skin Rug".

CATTLE MARKET

Many moons ago, when I was just a youngster, I saw a movie which had a scene that embedded very deeply in my psyche and no doubt sowed a seed that grew into one of the gorgeous blooms in the garden of my sexuality. But for some reason, probably because it was only a tiny part of a full length film, I could not recall the title nor indeed anything else about the movie. It annoyed the hell out of me and I have spent the last few days attempting to track it down. I am pleased to report success!

The film is called Prime Cut and was made in 1972 and is about a gangster sent to collect a debt from the owner of a meat packing plant. Not the most exciting storyline I hear you say, but at the time this film was considered rather nasty as not only did it show scenes of cows being slaughtered but it also depicted female slavery. It was the latter that held my interest all those years ago!

Note the very doll-like state of the women.

As said, less than two minutes, but a very important two minutes for me. Enjoy (if you like that sort of thing!)

WIND-UP GYNOID

A fabulous photographic manipulation by Scott Miron (posted with his kind permission).

DESIGNING THE DOLL - IDEAS TO REALITY

In the perfect fantasy, dollification is full and total. Never again does being human come into the equation. Surgery is had to achieve perfect shape, skin is coated with latex that never comes off, life is spent either out playing with an owner or in a box all alone, etc, etc, etc. But life is not a perfect fantasy and achieving all of the above is pretty much impossible, unworkeable and undo-able. I find it most unfortunate that people post on the internet, in all seriousness, that they are seeking to REALLY be a doll at all times and for all eternity.

Sure, the mindset is possibly achievable 24/7 365 days a year, although I doubt it very much - you need to switch to being a human at work, with your family, when you go to see your doctor, when the plumber comes to fix your toilet! In reality, to achieve a total mindset would entail one living a life with nobody in it except your owner and never having to deal with anyone or anything in the outside world.

So, the first step on the dollification path is accepting how the limits of everyday life will confine you and also accepting the fact that you will always technically be human no matter how hard you try!

Second stage - what type of doll do you wish to be? Barbie type appears rather popular although I don't personally understand why - I find the look insipid and boring! There are so many other types of doll to be, from the classic porcelain to the cute babydoll, all the way through to the rubber doll or the gothic lolita type.

Still on type - do you wish to be clockwork, battery or simply static? I personally am a combination of the latter two - I will explain this further in another post. Makeup or mask? Speech or silence? Your own hair or wig?

Third stage - do you wish a sexual element to your doll or are you simply for displaying and playing with in a non-sexual manner? I suppose ultimately that would be down to your owner, although an unowned doll can still make that choice for themselves.

Creating your doll physical appearance, be it all your ideas or with instruction from an owner, is an important step in allowing your mind to switch fully into your doll persona.

Photo ©2010 by Alternative Mindsets

WATCH THE PRETTY PONIES

THERE TO BE USED

I mentioned in my first entry in this blog about an aspect of objectification that we enjoy whereby I am reduced to nothing more than a single body area such as a pair of breasts or a cunt. I suspect that the basis for my enjoyment of this type of play is down to the humiliation aspect - having everything about me taken away except for a part that is used in a rough and uncaring sexual manner. Whilst there IS real female flesh and blood in whatever part has been isolated, basically I have been turned into nothing more than a cheap sex toy.

The picture below is an artistic interpretation of these feelings and thoughts. No need for a face or a brain or a heart, just machinery to keep life ticking away whilst the toy's owner takes his pleasure or gives his pain.


Photo ©2010 by Alternative Mindsets

POSES PLASTIQUE

I watched the new Dorian Grey movie the other night and was interested to spot a human statue in an opium house scene taking the mode of Venus. It brought back memories of a similar posing in the TV series Tipping The Velvet (see pic).

These Victorian/Edwardian performances were known as 'Poses Plastique' and were not just used at fetishistic occasions but also in theatres. Models tended to adopt classical roles and poses, often Greek or Roman deities.

Was it classed as pornography? Apparantly not as long as the model remained totally still in her pose.

I should imagine that human statues were in use long before this particular era - makes a note to research!

OCCASIONAL TABLE

And I am glad it is occasional as it hurts after a certain period of time! Not as young as I used to be ya know! The pain mostly occurs in my wrists, especially when, like in the pic, I have to bend my elbows in order to maintain a straight back for the tabletop. And my lower back does start to ache a bit also, feeling like it is locked, which, for a lifeless piece of furniture is good!

It did used to be that the aches and pains interrupted my though processes but in time I learned to tune the majority of the discomfort out. Slow, even breathing and internally repeating a mantra word in my head generally gets me back to the mindset I should be in. However, as much as I want to be an inanimate object, the hard fact is that I am not and sooner or later reality kicks back in with a vengeance and no amount of giving myself a good talking to fixes that!

I suppose BDSM of any sort is never meant to be comfy!

Photo ©2010 by Alternative Mindsets

DOLL THEMED EXHIBITION

An exhibition at Laforet Museum (within Laforet shopping centre, Tokyo) presented people such as designers, models and architects
giving their view and interpretation of their
respective lives on the London scene.

The people were each represented by a life sized dressed and packaged doll. The clothing used belonged to the subject and the packaging on the boxes and accessories gave an insight into who they are and what they like.

Would have been more interesting with 'real' dolls :)